I had a conversation with myself.

Hiakhiak! There's pictures today! <3

Let's talk about last night, Went to meet up with Teresa and h2h talk la. Because afterall, something happen between her and her girlfriend last night. She told me everything and i was like. OKAY... Cause i don't know what to say mah. IT'S A RELIEF SHE DIDN'T CRY. IF NOT I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. :/ Talked to her and she went home. Mandy came over and stay! So imagine how happy i was! <3 We did many stupid stuffs together last night. SUMPA. Shall keep it a secret!

Woke up because of Jiangyan. She said Mandy mum is downstairs. BOTH OF US FREAKED OUT. Just nice she's hugging me to sleep uh & Jiangyan came in suddenly and scare both of us. :/ Went down and confirm confirm. YES IS HER MUM. Went up woke her up drag her out of the bed & finally we're downstairs. :/

Was suppose to have tuition, but i cancelled it. Suppose to go to church, I got prepared but i'm lazy to go! So stayed at home. Got emo suddenly and ended up crying and went MIA. This time round i got nagged by so many people and Drew and friends found me. That's so unfair. :/ But still now i'm home. I was touched by the who, because she said she wanted to come down and ensure i'm alright. HAPPY YOU KNOW NOT. But nevermind, i think we're going out tomorrow! Shall see how! Anyway! That's all! Goodbye! I miss that bitch! :(

You are the only person that can make my heart beat faster and slower at the same time.

Backed home. Effing tired, but i'm blogging because... I'm bored. HA-HA. Just came back from Serangoon. Gosh, just found out that she stay so near my ahma. :/ Uhmm. That's random. I followed her all the way there because.. she almost cried on the bus just now. Although she act like she's okay. But i know she isn't alright at all. So yep, left her there. Planned to go find ahma but i've no idea what level she stay. Damn fail, afterall, i'm not really close with this Ahma la. Ohwell. :)

Talk about yesterday, School was perfectly okay. Waited at canteen for Teresa to be done with whatever she was doing, went to KB mac and ate lunch and studied till like 6 plus and we headed back. Uhm, Send her home la, cause very late already. Plus her mum set a rule for her that she has to be back by 7. :/ So ya, went MIA after what she said before leaving. But i guess, i made everybody worried. SORRY! But still, got home safely. :)

Today in school, totally shit. Class guys went to find YX. And ya, conflicts over conflicts. But in the end okay already. Ran 2.4 today. All of us pass. From Mr Ong face la. He looks happy though and even gave us early recess. :/ I mood-swing suddenly. :/ Saw her in the toilet and ignored her. :x Went back to class and sleep. Today assembly is damn funny because of those BB performance!

Went back home after nua-ing in school because Celeste waiting for Nikki, Went home and took a power nap and decided to go back to school to find Teresa because she seems moody and don't know what to do. So bathe and went over. Bump into many schoolmates. Alamak. SUAY. So we nua-ed at BBT shop there while waiting for her girlfriend to reply, can see that she like very lost lorh. HIAS. So in the end, i was like just go and find her la. She was like.... OKAY. So we bused to her house lorh. But her friend texted me, so ya. She almost cried SUMPA after seeing that text. But i was like trying my best to keep disturbing her. HAHAHA. Went nex. Saw Misaki. Didn't know is her till Teresa say. So i wanted to like BOO her. But failed cause she just nice turn back. SO EMBRASSING. So Teresa apologised to her. :/

Walked to her girlfriend place, HELL TIRED. :( SO FAR FROM NEX EH. :( Can actually take 76 go there want lorh. OHWELL. Basically that's what i did today & yesterday. I'm so confused now. So don't feel like blogging so ya! Goodbye!

You don't need anybody that does not need you. Focus on those who truly appreciate you & get rid of those who don't.

A blog post without pictures again. SORRY. :/

Have been lagging of pictures or can say, i'm lazy to take pictures la. School today was perfectly NOT OKAY. As in to the part on.. after school. Will elaborate later! Fire drill today super KNS sia, it must freaking ring when i'm sleeping. -.- Strolled down. YES WE FREAKING STROLLED. We walked effing slow. :/ I think we were almost the last to reach. HAHA.

After that nothing nice happen in school already lorh, had lunch with Pong & Daren & Chew at hub, FOOD COURT of course. Chew treat me eat lunch. <3 Love her so much. Send her to yck cause she meeting Nikki and Brandon. :/ I went back to school to find for Teresa, studied together. This time round i really studied. Librarian kept disturbing. OHWAIT, I'M NOT STUDYING WITH TERESA ONLY. Teresa friend was there too. AWKWARD BUT.. HAHAHA. Nevermind. She doesn't want to be light bulb so ya, i go over to be another light bulb too. LOL! After that, library closed and we have to leave.

Accompanied Teresa to the toilet, we somehow had a war in the toilet :/ So i walked out of the toilet, and went back in cause she's freaking emo-ing there. -.- Pekchek sia. Forever emo-ing. Second round we somehow had a tiff again. Then i say she flirt. Then she got angry eh. She really got angry that she had the intention to leave me alone in the toilet. So i was like asking her to stay. So she stayed. :) But this time round, we didn't talk. The whole toilet like a quiet only. Cleaner outside thought nobody so she off the light and fans! GRR. I got pissed off because i talk to her she give me cold replies then what for i stay there right? So i walked out and went home.

Bus journey was bullshit, i cried, No idea why. Reached home locked myself in the room. Everybody was shocked. As in my mum worker and my maid. I cried like siaogina. Called Marhuimin & Priscillia. Mandy in the end came over. Because she also know i cried. But when she came over my tears all gone already. So she stayed and played at my place till 9.30 and i send her off to mrt. Was planning to like accompany her to her place, but in the end never cause my phone no more battery! :(

Walked home, bathe & now here am i blogging instead of studying SS. Okay la, going to study SS a little and go to bed already. I'm ultra ultra ultra tired! :/ Goodbye!

The pain of heartbreak is more overwhelming than the feeling of love itself.

It's Valentine today, what did you guys did? Want to know what i did today? :) NOTHING <3 Maybe because i don't have a date that's the reason why i'm such a lonely girl. No surprise this year but in the end, i'm going to give a surprise, but praying hard that i could bump into her. :/ I don't know if i should go give the surprise not, still considering at the moment. but 90% i would. :/

Talk about school today, nothing much happen though. Just that the part on i couldn't find Teresa really made me cry. :/ Ya, i cried. How dumb eh. She let me climbed up the stairs for like don't know how many times and asked Mr Koh where were you. HAHA. But in the end she was alright, i bet she doesn't even know how freaked out i was when i couldn't find her. & Classmates was like chuatio to see her point middle finger at me. HAHAHA. Ohwell. :')

Marhuimin & Priscillia & Priscillia friend came over to my place. I really thank God for them coming, at least someone to accompany me ley! :( Send marhuimin to bus-stop and i headed home! :) Saw ahem ex and called him!

Poyin currently at my place now, received quite alot of letters today <3 Thanks alot bitches :/ Took photo with Whitney. I look so adorable, Maybe because i don't look fat la. HAHAHAHA. I know i damn BHB. Uhmmm, short update today cause have to get prepared and that's all for today! Goodbye! :)

We waste time looking for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love.

No pictures for today, Boring post. <3

Went to school just in time, :) Nua at the toilet because don't want to go for assembly. Slept through history, chinese, maths & physics today. :) LiMingZhu is the funniest, I told him 10 minutes later i would wake up. He walked away. 10 minutes later he came to me and wake me up. Cute sia he. Went to find Teresa after school. Pangseh Chew because of her :@ I'm a nice girl you know you know. So we went to have lunch together, but before that we went to find Valda to chit-chat. I kept disturbing her while she was eating & she's meeting with her girlfriend and i'm going home so we took the same bus 45. The fucking bus like a slow only :@ Wait for like 10-15 minutes then the bus came. GRRR. Board the bus, both of us hell tired and fell asleep. We missed both of our bus stop & don't know ended up where. I keep complaining i want to vomit because i'm really really really very uncomfortable so we dropped at the next stop. The awkward moment when i really want to vomit i just sat on the floor. On the road. I bet Teresa was like wtfuck, HAHAHA. But still manage to stand up and continue walking. We waited for 45 again at the opposite side, waited for like 10-15 minutes again :@ We again fell asleep but this time round, she missed her stop. NOT ME :) So we alighted at my place, and accompanied her to bus-stop THOUGH she kept pestering me to go home because i was really unwell. BUT I'M A GOOD FRIEND YOU KNOW. Okay, super bullshit. :/ She left and i went home & sleep. So here i am right now. I'm going to write Valentine's letter after blogging! <3

Ohya, many things happen last night. I forget some, remember some. I was dead drunk but all i remember is we kept going down non-stop and we cried. You sat at the staircase and cried and all i could do is say sorry. :'( The feeling so sucky you know! :/ No idea if you would be seeing this, but let me tell you that everything i said when i'm drunk is the truth. I cried to sleep every single night without you by my side. I fall more for you every single day. If we couldn't be lovers, but i would be your best friend. Who would be always there for you if you needed me. :) Somehow, i love the time when you would grab me and somehow i felt assured that i did mattered to you. I love the time when you saw me crying and you would hug me and wipe those tears away from my eyes. I love the time when you tried to guide the way because i'm very drunk. I love the time when we would never be awkward at all.

K la k la. Valentine's tomorrow. I'm spending it alone at home. How awesome :) Unless someone sweet enough to give me surprise like last year lorh. HAHA. Expecting too much. Alright then! Have to write those letter's now. Goodbye! ^^

The biggest mistake I made in my life is letting people stay in my life longer than they deserve.

RWAR. I look horrible in that picture but ohwell, deal with it~ Had no intention to blog today till two things happen today which cause me can't have a good nap & of course i cried. So let me tell you the first person who somehow went missing today.

1. Teresa.
Got a text from her girlfriend, she told me she was missing. Freaked out and panic with her. LOL. So asked friends staying at sembawang to go over to mac and asked if did she went to work today. Celeste's papaya was freaking malu because it ended up she didn't went for work. But Teresa gave me a call in the end because she know that i was looking for her, that's not the point. The point is knowing she's alright. That's all that matters.

2. Priscillia.
We were supposed to head out today, but i pangseh cause i'm really tired and uncomfortable & plus my brother being a bitch today. :( So yep, She called around 9 plus asking me to go down to KB mac, i said i can't because my brother being a bitch. So ya, but i got another call from Marhuimin that telling me that Priscillia cried after talking over the phone with me and went missing. I freaked out again, and panic again. Danny text me asked me to go over and decided to go over because i also miss her alot too. :/ I almost cried when i couldn't flagged a cab. At the same time, it happen that i'm talking over the phone with Marhuimin so somehow i calmed down. Reached already and Priscilla wasn't there only Marhuimin. So we waited for them to come back, She came back, i don't know what's wrong with me. I gave her fucked up attitude, maybe because at the same time i couldn't find for Teresa and it's already 9 plus at that time. Really regretted giving her attitude. When she board the bus, i wanted to like give her a hug because she was stressed. Sigh, regret not giving. I miss how close we were last time, i miss how happy we were last time. Today was.... crap. I'm really sorry pris. I know you got freaked out and stressed out by Danny. I'm sorry for not understanding you. :( Sigh....

Yep, basically that's all for today. Waiting for Mandy to come over right now. Going to like have a good talk with her with the help of beer. Because when i'm drunk everything i said is the truth. & i remember she saying i'm very cute when i'm drunk because i have high-pitch voice. Plus my action and stuffs also lah. But praying hard that i could wake up for school tomorrow. CANNOT BE LATE YO. :/ I need morning call <3 Whose the kind soul who could give me morning call. HEHEHE. <3 Joking la. Okay that's all. Goodbye.

I wanna cuddle with you, snuggle with you, kiss you, laugh with you. I wanna do everything with you!

One picture will do for today. Mandy just left my place not long ago. :/ Starting to miss her already. I'm very afraid something would happen to her once she got home. Maybe i should like go and find her or something later on. Shall see how it goes. :/ Gave church a miss today. Ultra guilty. But still, i enjoyed myself at home. :) Uhmm, not really. :/

We fell asleep last night because we're ultra tired, wait wrong. I can't sleep but she fell asleep! :/ Like after skyping with Marhuimin of course. She was putting mask at that time and was freaking us out. :( I kept cheating her feeling that something just flowed past, and she believed. & we ended up tickling each other.

In the morning, woke up because of Marhuimin because i'm suppose to wake her up and i had tution in the morning too & something happen during tuition and it made me freaked out like seriously. Tuition teacher also freaked out together with me. He's super funny. LOL. Mandy & I got pretty high at the point when she could give me LB but i couldn't give her LB. So it's pretty unfair. :/

I was ultra down after hearing what she say, it just tells me like i'm just nothing in her eyes. That's all. So i went super quiet and almost cried. So i told her i went down and smoke. In fact, i smoked and cried. She didn't bother and continue sleeping. :@ So i went back up after smoking a few sticks and of course done crying i sat there and fell asleep. But abit uncomfortable so i go up to the bed. This time round, i put a bloster in between us and use a different blanket. Totally ignored her. Cried and fell asleep.

I got woken up by her hug and assurance that i'm alright. Covered myself under the blanket. Had some war and told her i want to vomit so she could distant herself from me. At that moment, i took the chance and went down again. She followed behind. I didn't knew. I thought i was going to be alone again. She kept asking if i'm alright. So i forced a smile on my face and told her i'm perfectly alright. So we went mad and threw stuffs into people house. SHE DOING THE JOB. But sadly, she missed. AND IT HAPPEN THAT WE PLAN TO THROW INTO MY HOUSE. Bump into HW, JF & YX.

Came up and heard Jiangyan and her son quarreling AGAIN. Everytime she has to be there when they quarrel. She was very hungry because we skipped breakfast and lunch. :/ So we were very afraid to go out of the house to get biscuits. But still we manage to go out and grab it. HEHE. How awesome. :) After eating everything, she had to go. Didn't manage to give her a goodbye hug because i'm skyping with mummy. :( So yep, will be seeing her tomorrow with Marhuimin and Priscillia. HAPPY DIE. So alright, will post till here. Goodbye. :)